Come to my rescue Jesus

broken
sadness
depression
faint
fatigue
tired
weary
alone
afraid
scared
alone
well how the hell
did i ever end up here
was it his fault or hers
or anyone at all
when i think of loud music and blinding lights
i wonder if that would even help me out tonight
i think of the voices
and say
i dont even feel like talking tonight
i cant even whisper
i dont have the strength
i want to collapse but fear You wont
be there to catch me
if I just let go
of all of my control
in every area of my life
O dear God
im hurting to bad
i feel the pain rush
I cant even stop to feel
an inch of this agony
when I think who will come and rescue me?
behind closed doors
i dare to even shout
talking to You is what its really
all about
for me right now
if i can talk to You
i think I can make it through
maybe just one second at a time
but im tired of this crap
and im leaving it all behind
to take my faith and run with it
to take my new life
and just go with it
be with me
Lord just be with me here
Renew this mind
renew this spirit
renew this heart
give me a new heart
give me newness
i cry out to You
as if I havent eaten for years
as if ive starved myself
and im trying to push aside
all of my fears!
take me and help me
o sweet God of grace
Help me lovingly look into Your face
Jesus come to my rescue
I am calling out to You tonight
Come to my rescure
I dont have strength to fight!--ar

You are only what I long to live for

Totally brand new

I sit and go down memory lane

and say was that really me?

I'm crying out

for You to restore me

Divide the lies from the truth

all under Your blood

You love my voice

and that I count on

to carry me through

Knowing I have matured

You place confidence in me

for You, even You, Lord

do trust me

To carry them through the

gates

and into the heavenly place

its a task

that I never imagined

but one that You have called me to

and i do sweetly embrace it

Lord

I ask for Your forgiveness

and thank You for taking me

onto better things

paint me a picture

of what walking in truth

really really means

Take away my lies

take away my avoidance

let me look at You straight in the face

the unavoidable

I know I hear Your voice

may I heed it always

may I feel Your embrace

once more

leaving behind

the who knows

what it all really was

perhaps just a friendship

perhaps just a way

to teach someone

what it really means to know You

without any masquerades

wow

dear God

I thank You for my honesty

and I ask that You let it help

those around me

for what does it even mean

to know You

and lie to You

at the same time O God?

You know everything

theres nothing we can keep from You

Take me higher

maybe slowly but higher

is what is gonna have to do

there is no turning back

remove my fears

from all the years

and place me in Your hands

Hold me

Lord

because only You

can do it Lord, only You can do it--ar

Devil wont win

theres an open door

to my heart

and the water is gushing out

rivers and streams of water

just pouring out

all over the place

everywhere

synonymous with my salty tears

and the pain of a new life

i dare to hold dear

near to me

this is my new life and

dont you forget about it

its my life

so dear and precious to Him above

I know i am worth more than gold

my worth is equivalent to that of a fine

diamond

to be handled carefully

and to be looked upon with awe

if you dont see it

you have your blinders on

the sacrifice i made

was not in vain

i hold on for dear life

thanking Him again

for He rescues me out

of all of my afflictions

and distresses

and i know my faith

has very well been tested

and even shaken

but i stand firm

to the end

not looking down

now i begin

to tread over serpents

and all that tries to ensnare me

the devil wont

win

because i told him

to get behind me--ar

Caught up in Him

a single tear
with the salt of a thousand emotions
a thousand feelings
climbing uphill
when im losing my strength
wont u run a mile for me
my perserverance
makes me question my sanity
is this is a false hope or a reality
is this something i asked for
because i didnt think it was dreamt to be this way
and what way was that really?
only God knows
and only God can tell
He is good and His mercy endureth
forever
so take me over and yonder
above this fleshly veil
of all the world and its tumult
i dont deserve the pigs pen
or the pigs trough
i am your daughter
and you will deal with those who are not
kind to me
for what is that but a vapor
even if doesnt last
it fades away into the sunglight
the rain falls and washes away all that
is distressing me
as im caught up in the ocean and
waves of your sweet love
tell me a story
Lord
one with You in it
for that is all im living for
is You and a touch
of Your glory-ar

No loss?

anger spins inside

like a tornado of fire

a wishing well

running strong

fire ablaze

set me aflame

my fists i clench

waiting while feeling such

emotional pain

anguish agony

such a sweet lot in this life

such a sweet thought id try

running faster

past all of those on the sidelines

i tred over the track

of this life

this sweet demise

how can it be good

if i feel pain

is it pain thast u brought

or some that ive carried all along so far

to this place

where i sit and stare at myself

in the face

i swing

i bat

i hit the jackpot

a homerun

the crowd is cheering

theres nothing left except for Jesus

to come back now

living my life for His kingdom

His kingdom come His will be done

to be apart from my lover

brings me such heartache

i ache

for Him

i ache for him

must i sit and waste away

in heartbreak

heartbreak hotel

check me in today

let me out when who knows

maybe tomorrow

if i can just sit and be patient

i think it might pass

whichever way is the way the

river of the Lord flows

and if He doesnt want this stream

to match that one

then its okay

it wont

a new day

a new breeze

spending my days here

Jesus says stop

and i listen gently

and submit my will to His

because my heart belongs to Him

and i dont care what it costs me

becayse im not stopping for anybody

no not today

theres new songs to sing

there is newness that other days will bring

me

and its okay

if you dont stop on my way

i wont cry i wont be sad

because i know Jesus blessings are on their way

and thats something that no one can dare take

trample over me

so what

i let you

was it a loss

no

not at all--ar